Just know the kingdom of God is within you

Nothing in this house shuts properly. The windows in my room. The front door. My nutella jar. Today is the first day it's rained since I arrived in Rio. With the rain comes the wind and with the wind comes the tapping on the window, the shaking of the doors, and the opening and shutting of my nutella jar. There's not much to do here when it rains, so today I got on the metro and went to the mall. Finding out how to use the bus system was a little bit of a struggle, but the metro was simple. I've decided I need to use it more before I leave.

You see the public transport in the city was horrible and then Rio decided to host every world event ever. The world cup. The olympic games... You name it, it's probably been here in the last 10 years. The question is, how sustainable was Brazil's economy in order to take these events? and how frequently do we as humans think about short term rather than the long term? The metro in Rio is awesome, and it moves tons of people from one place to the other daily, but it's also uprooted many homes and favelas in the process. So did building the olympic village. This left many people uprooted from their homes, in poverty, and the country in a worse financial state than before. [side note: I'm not saying that these events are what lead the country to economic crisis, but I'm also not here to be a news stand so check out a news stand for more information on the corruption taking place in the governmental system in Rio for more information. ]

But short term, Brazil was meeting the demands of the international stage. In the meantime, we (the international community) were criticizing them because the village wasn't completed and the pool was green. So much short term thought that might be one of the reasons for the economic recession that is occurring in the country today.

So lets talk short term thought again. I'm hearing my host mom's daughter sobbing right now over this boy. Or i assume it's this boy. This has been happening since I arrived. She lives with him one week, the next she's heart broken over him. It breaks my heart, but also I want to give her some tough love and tell her to brush it off and get on with other things.

I was thinking earlier that I've never lived in a house with all girls, but I've decided that's a lie. I currently live with all girls. But I guess I've never lived with all older girls, or girls truly struggling to find love. It's a weird situation because my host mom is 53 and her daughter 27 and my roommate 27. They are in total different stages in their lives. I can't truly comprehend the loneliness that they all feel, and the hurt they all feel because they just got out relationships. But I do understand that life will continue and better things will happen if you are progressive about them.

I just have felt the whole time that it's all about boys in this house. Which anyone who knows me knows I hate. You can't structure your life around anybody BUT you can build and grow your life with someone (hopefully with God as the main focus of your relationship). I don't know if part of it is cultural or part of it is that all of the women in my life are so independent, but I have never felt more out of advice than I do here. Because all of me wants to tell them that they are focusing so much on the short term. Things will get better.

This might sound like I'm an anti-romatic, (which in a lot of ways might be true) but a lot of it is just a pure focus on feminism as a fact that women can do so many wonderful and incredible things with support from people. It doesn't have to be a boyfriend or a husband. Continue to grow yourself for the better and the people that you need to support you will be found a long the way.

Also alway hug your siblings. they are the best support.

in complete contrast to this post, 12 days.

xx

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